I even went to the Caribbean, but no tropical country could warm my heart until the Universe gave me a gift – life in my belly.

The more you live with a man, the stronger your connection and attachment to each other. And if people decide to split up, each person feels as if they are tearing away a part of themselves, cutting through the flesh. It’s very painful and unfortunately I had to go through this. After we split up I couldn’t forget him for a long time. He would visit me in my dreams every night the first few months after our split. I hoped that we would at least remain friends because we were connected by many things, not just our relationship, but even this didn’t come to be. I ended up leaving everything connected with him; all our friends, joint projects and business… I left the past in the past.

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In this kind of situation you might ask yourselves:

“What should I do, how can I take away the pain? How can I accept the split? How can I replenish my energy stocks?”

I went on a long journey to holy places, monasteries and places of power in search for the answer. Mexico played an instrumental part in my journey.

Prayers helped me most of all. I would read then every day and night and with each prayer I felt my heart filling with light and thawing like a frozen flower, like a scorched prairie that is covered with grass again, and the tears I cried were like rain that waters the new shoots of faith and love.

Yes, it wasn’t easy for me to leave everything just like that. To be left with an abyss. But it was this abyss that filled me with meaning.

When I came to Mexico, the healers gave me the following instruction: “All that you should feel towards this person is sincere gratitude for travelling together for part of the journey on the train of life. He left on his station and you on yours…”

They gave me exercises to clean my energy and body from my connection and attachment to him and to free myself from the ghosts of the past which couldn’t leave my mind in peace. These techniques helped me get rid of dependence, accept the situation and reassume the feeling of lightness. I will describe some of them below.

Freeing yourself from foreign intentions

We women are constructed in a way that makes our centres open to the external world to such an extent that it can penetrate us directly, take possession of our heart, soul and consciousness and even force out OUR own World…

When I had my first ultrasound at week 6 of my pregnancy, I could finally see my female centre on the picture with the naked eye. I fell into a trance… How careful we have to be as women with and whom we allow into our lives. How careful we have to be to protect ourselves from conversations and contacts that don’t serve us well!

Sometimes we go into a relationship, then another one and another yet again, and every person in our life imparts us with their understanding of the world, sometimes forcing their own path and decisions on us. Yet each one of us has their own life purpose on this Earth and it’s important not to lose sight of it. To break out of the thousands of life purposes left in us by our parents, teachers, partners and step onto our own life’s purpose. To walk the path of the Heart and feel happiness from what WE do. How can we achieve this?

Everything begins with the practice of cleansing. A holistic cleanse. Only this can give us an understanding of our Heart’s path. There are many paths in the world. You can go North, South, West, East, up or down, but the most interesting of all is to go deep into your Heart.

Cleansing by water

We are 75% water. Water sees everything and remembers the information it meets on its journey. It also takes on the form of whatever it resides in. When you have sexual contact with a person you exchange fluids with each other i.e. information which each of you carry inside yourselves. This is especially pertinent for women.

Why do we feel a pull towards a man after sexual contact with him?…

This is a small part of a woman’s inner man which desires to connect with the whole – with him that is. Parts of the whole always strive to join together again.

If this is your beloved, your life partner, this connection is wonderful and will strengthen your union. Through it you can feel each other without words. Time and distance will cease to exist in your world.

At the start of my acquaintance with my beloved, an interesting event took place which became one of the key signs that allowed me to open up to this person after a long period of reclusion.

Diary entry

Friends! How quickly you leave me and find new friends; the only trace of me in your memories is like a bright reflection on crystal glass.

But I can’t forget or leave anyone; each of you are like diamonds in my memory.

All of you are my threads, my children, my dears. I feel honey-like viscous warmth towards you…

How do you do this? Tell me…